to my favorite phat boy...

I'm still hoping that this is all a joke

Like what u always do

And a very bad one indeed

I'm still expecting

For you to call me any minute from now

And said "gotcha"

So that I will have the right to kick you silly

But I guess people don't pull a bad joke

on old people with weak heart

and high blood pressure

I'm going to miss your easygoing smile

and your comment everytime
when you see me all dressed up

"you're looking for a guy is it?"

I'm going to miss the fact that you're larger than life

and embracing it

with open heart

even though I will tell you

that you take half of the space

of my living room

I will miss our annual balik kampung road trips

that we've been taking since you're a tod

You're always happy

and you never take people's word

to heart

and you relish

in being called a phat boy

and proud of it

I will miss our picnics and outings and meals

and secretly feeding you extra food

when your mum ain't looking

I will miss the way

you make me feel great

about the way I look

I will miss your bragging

about having

two secret admirers

I want you to know

that you're the only male cousin

that I still hugged and let hug

even though you're all grown up now

to me you're still the chubby little boy

that I used to chase around

I pray that you're blessed
in the thereafter
I pray to Allah to give your family
the strength to move on
without you

I'm glad we had a lot of happy memories together
it made me laugh
when you added me in facebook
a day before your 18th birthday
less than 2 weeks back
just because
I only allow 18 years old and above
to be my facebook friend
never thought it would be your last

phat boy
I love you

Al-Fatihah