Smile

When he smiles, my heart skips a beat.
A warm feeling seeps through me, melting my fears away.

I just wish he smiles more often at me.

:*

Everyone has their own struggles, in the end we all even out

Bertahanlah, wahai raksa, jangan kau terhenti

Berpautlah, wahai nyawa, ini bukan mimpi

Saksikan dengan mata

Rasakan dengan jiwa

Kau sedang tinggi

Jauhnya kau terbang

Siapa sangka?

Getir yang menghalang tak besar mana

Payah payah semalam

Moga mudah selama

Tiap apa yang mematah tegakmu

Tiap yang menolak

Tiap yang memijak-henyak

Biar di belakangmu

Jangan dikenang

Moga dibuang dendam dan sayu

Tuhan

Jangan kau izin aku lupa

Jangan kau biarkan aku mendepang dada

Pasakkan hatiku pada kaki

Paksakan ku tunduk sehingga mati.

~ Fynn Jamal, Terbang Tunduk ~

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Happy 1st anniversary habibie!!!

Thanks for bearing with all my antics and whims.

I love you so much!

Jom kurus.....

#ekuinoksmusimbunga

Every girls have dreams about how they want their wedding to be.

And me, compared to other people I've known, have relatively simple dreams.

If it's not against the syarak...why kill the dreams?

If the dress makes me happy and still covered, why can't just let me be?

Haven't I compromised enough?

Emotionally unstable,
Bridezilla

Salam Ramadhan

Oh what happened in the last few weeks?

- busy giler with all these subsurface reviews....plus one day intensively being grilled on petrophysics

- went to Nouman Ali Khan's Divine Speech Seminar - superb!

- encik tunang (kekekekekeke still rasa kelakar referring to him as that) started weekend classes...huhu dating time kene cut off

- Ramadhan starts tomorrow in Malaysia...bulan di mana dapur saya paling aktif sebab malas nak pegi pasar ramadhan...hopefully tak banyak jemputan buka puasa kat hotel coz I'm really really fat right now

- on the other hand, dapat orang macam ni...siapa2 pun mesti semangat nak masak and temankan dia makan....kan?

**picnic tepi swimming pool je huhu

8 June 2014

Alhamdulillah, we've passed another milestone. Let's pray for the next 3/4 of a year to be stress-free.. Amiinn

Jiwang sat

I'm totally in love with this guy.

(seen here posing with the sand art I made)

Will it be this kind of love?

The Art of Being Lonely (in case you've forgotten how)

I have to admit, I've been spoiled by a lot of affections and attention from the beginning. Thus lately, when we're out of that phase and moving on to the more serious phase...it makes me miss those days even more.

Especially when you're dealing with hormones + work stress + flu + looming deadlines + spending less time with your loved one because you / him have some other obligations to fulfill.

And me assuming that he would understand my silence. Hmmmmm.... I should re-read the Mars-Venus book.

Oklah...before air hidung dan air mata keluar (daym hormones)...baik saya makan kek.

Some things gotta give (away)

Little brother is on a trip to Bandung and instead of the usual kain-telekung-brownies thingy...he bought me a painting.

He obviously thinks I have too much clothes already my wardrobe overflowed (which is true). Very fine young man indeed.

Even Mr C is asking me to make closet space for him... Hmmmmmm, fancy a jumble sale anyone?




P/S: tema painting adalah keseimbangan

My list

List of movies that I have to watch while it is still being aired in the nearest cinema:

1. Saving Mr Banks
2. Monuments Men
3. The Book Thief
4. American Hustle
5. Cuak - don't think they show it anymore
6. Robocop - ?

I'm so behind nowadays...can you believe I haven't even watched Hunger Games 2?


:-(

March

Was totally sick the whole of last week - a concoction of broken spirit, menstrual cramps, fever and food poisoning.

Apparently I got it from a contractor-organized course and I'm not the only one down...

Alhamdulillah, the men in my life (dad, bros & Mr C) nursed me back to health, in their own way, just in time to attend a friend's wedding.

The bright side of it was --> I looked less chubby...heehehehe




** kene kutuk ngan Aidil pasal selfie berdua

22.2

First step of many, inshaaAllah

Berdua.

Rabbi yassir wa laa tu'assir

Insecurities

No matter how blissful you feel, there is always room for bits of these to wiggle in.

http://www.uncommonhelp.me/articles/overcoming-insecurity-in-relationships/

One word Wednesday

Merajuk

Lip Service

It's been quite a while since I did beauty product reviews, so here's one on lipsticks.





From top:

1. Bare Minerals lip gloss in Sangria

I don't really use much lip gloss coz personally I don't like the shiny look, but on certain occasions I will dab some of this on top of my lipstick. It doesn't have the sticky feeling, and it smells like cupcake ;) .

P/S: I'm also a loyal user of the Bare Minerals make up range. I'm using both the powder and the Ready foundation, as well as the blusher. It doesn't irritate my sensitive skin and looks natural.


2. Burberry Lip Mist Rosy Red No. 205

I first fall in love with Burberry Lip Cover No. 09 ever since a friend introduced it to me. The color is like coral pink and it complements my skin tone and it is so lightweight I barely even noticed I have lipstick on.

Anyway, there was a time when every makeup-conscious people I know are into the classic red lips look, so I went searching for THE red lipstick for me. I'm not that bold and brave, so I chose a sheer lipstick rathen than matte, and of course it got to be Burberry. I really, really love it.
If you are convinced after reading my review, you can get Burberry lipstick and other makeup from their counter in Isetan KLCC. It's the only place I know which sells them. I also bought liquid makeup base and foundation here, and it's quite nice.



Burberry Lip Cover Blush No.09


Burberry Lip Sheer Rosy Red No.205

P/S: those pics were taken when I lost quite some weight. Now I've gained it all back. (And perhaps some more - depressed)

3. Antipodes Aroha Lipstick in Boom Rock Bronze

I'm using Antipodes line of skincare - it's organic; most of the products I used are based on avocado oil and it feels wonderful on my sensitive skin. You can get it from Skin Lab. I found out that they've added organic lipstick and since I almost ran out of my Blush No.09, I gave this a go. It is almost the same shade, albeit more matte and less shiny. Lightweight - love it, but since it's organic, it's not that long lasting so you will always have to re-apply.

4. Dinoplatz - Lost Identity Lip Tint in "Lost in You"

I bought this from the Too Cool for School shop in Jalan Telawi, on the same row as Dip n Dip. Lots of cool stuffs there including this lip tint. It's hot pink/magenta variant but the colour changes according to your blood temperature (kot). Long lasting and a tiny dab is all you need if you don't want it to look too bright.

Mr C thought it's lip gloss and put on too much of this. It took forever to rub off, even with lots of scrubbing. Hehe








Lip balm is important, if you care for your lips.




I never like lip balms because they always feel heavy and/or medicated. I got this free when I bought some stuffs from L'Occitane and gave it a try. Now it's a staple - won't put on lipstick until after I apply this.

There you go, ladies....

Now....who's up for a kiss? ;P

Bothered.

I don't like the fact that I tend to unintentionally bumped into things that I better not knowing.

Should I pretend that I don't know or should I just ask straightly about it?

I don't want this tiny seed of whatever-it-is to bear roots...

Hmmmm...what to do, what to do





# Day 1 of Month 5

Terpinggir jap

Mr C has been using handphone Nokia lama hampir pecah yang takde kaler tu for more than 2 months since Berukberry dia rosak / dirosakkan.... So boleh je survive takleh tengok fesbuk whatsapp sepanjang masa kan...aku ok je sebab maknanya orang2 yang care pasal dia je yang sanggup guna conventional sms kan...hehe

Today, lepas survey dan fikir2 apa nak beli, finally decide on 5s...baru tau sekarang ni Maxis nye data plan dah best, tak macam dulu...huhu ni rasa macam nak jadi pelanggan Maxis balik ni...




See...muka orang yg happy giler...tadi dating pun dok sibuk dengan tepon...ape lagi ek.. kasi can la seminggu dua ni dia mengulit new toy dia...yg penting phone jangan kasi lock dari saya ok...

Nite!!

Vent. Rant. Whatever

As much as I want to keep the negativity out of any of my blog posts, there are bound to be time such as now where I just need an outlet to vent....

Been feeling low the whole week...partly because I wasn't feeling well and feel like crap the whole time...and a niggling feeling that I chose to ignore but when it surfaces, suddenly there's a dark cloud hanging over my head.

Even the fact that I just bought a new handbag doesn't help this low feeling that I'm having right now..and for the first time in months, I don't have anything to do on a Friday night..

At this very minute, I'm sitting alone in the car, parked somewhere not knowing what to do or where to go, digging deep into my heart to find out the root cause of my sadness. Is it because deep down, I still feel insecure? Is it because I hate being emotionally dependent on another person? Is it because I'm still getting used to the changes in my life?

well...since I'm also thinking of what I feel like doing.. These tops my list:

1. Write an angry message to my little brother - SENT

2. Get a hair cut and/or hair wash

3. Force myself to sleep

4. Watch a movie - scrap it...no fun watching alone and have to get up early tomorrow

5. Eat ice-cream / desserts - takde selera dah

6. Call my mom - no mood to talk, whatsapp only

7. Plan what to do on Sunday otherwise I'll go crazy again


Anyway, lega sikit lepas vent out kat sini...jom balik rumah sebelum mati keracunan karbon monoksida dalam kereta ni.. Na'uzubillah la kan



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