Planning a Wedding

picture from: www.tipdeck.com

I have a knack for organizing things. Most of the times in the dictator directive kind of way. Unfortunately my organizational skills are selective on things that catch my interest only – which doesn’t have anything to do with my career but mainly on organizing events.

 

The way I think is also very simple. Sampai sekarang I don’t understand why there is a lot of pening-pening kepala pasal nak organize events, especially among my family members. I think they just like to be complicated.

 

I’m helping my sister plan her wedding. Sebenarnya, tak berniat pun nak melibatkan diri (yelah, majlis orang…mana boleh menyibuk lebih-lebih), tapi melihatkan ada potensi akan over budget and to relief my sis of pre-wedding pressure so that she can think of better things to think about, I decided to offer my wisdom la. So far, I think I managed to get the door gift, invitation cards and photographer sourced albeit doing it long distance from Miri. I’ve laid out some options but the couple still need to make their choice (sis, you can always opt for dad’s suggestion to use manila card though...hahaha pun intended). Saya juga telah membebel menyediakan khidmat nasihat secara percuma with regards of what else to prepare.

 

So, you people out there, kalau malas nak memeningkan kepala untuk buat apa-apa event ke….kepala saya ini bersedia untuk pening atau pecah untuk merancang event anda. Tentang charge pula, tak mahal….maybe dalam 3 – 5% of the total cost of your event. (hahahaha….biar betul aku ni, tapi reasonable tak charge itu?)… okla kan.

 

If you guys ada baca Mitch Albom’s “Five People You Meet in Heaven”…the 4th person that Ed met after he died is his late wife. Her heaven is one that is full of weddings everywhere, because she loves the festivities and the bond of love that they symbolize. I love that chapter, I think it should be an inspiration to all wedding/event planner wannabes. Oooohhhh…..tiba-tiba rasa macam si Jennifer Lopez from the movie “Wedding Planner” pulak. <3 <3 <3

 

Kalau berminat, contact saya ok?

P/S: Sorry if the title is quite misleading…wakakakakaka

it will be a good one

saya dah lama tak update blog (kira lama la tu sebab kalau tak hari-hari saya update)

pada hari yang saya update pun, saya update benda-benda yang saya cedok dari mana-mana...or just sharing some things that I like yang orang pun dah tahu...or just writing mundane entries

saya sedang mengambil sedikit masa untuk menyelami jiwa sendiri

saya sedang mencari kekuatan hati (chewahhhh)

saya juga lagi mikir adakah perlu saya nge-blog atau main fesbuk dan merisikokan kebersendirian saya pada masa yang sama (thanks to Fatma's blog entry)

dalam pencarian diri, baru saya sedar saya ni rupanya kuat merajuk orangnya....but of course, kita hanya boleh merajuk pada orang yang kasih pada kita (maafkan saya ayah, sebab merajuk pada hari lahir ayah).

saya juga ingin renung kembali salah satu falsafah hidup saya - "live for the day".....mungkin sudah sampai masa juga untuk saya renung masa depan dalam tiap langkah yang saya ambil

doakan hidup saya nanti penuh dengan sinaran dan warna-warni

maaf saya tidak bisa buat kamu tertawa atau tersenyum kecil membaca entri hari ini

my next blog entry, I hope it will be a good one

my most favourite poem ever...

wrote it out of memory...sorryla kalau ada yang tersalah

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you drive my car

I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind

I hate you so much it makes me sick

it even makes me rhyme

I hate it when you're always right

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh

even more when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around

and the fact that you didn't call

but most of all...

I hate the way I don't hate you

not even a little bit

not even close

not at all...

P/S: life would be easier if I can hate you :-(

Pos Rahsia

I had a meeting on Monday to review my work in progress with our stakeholder in KL (note to self: sila kontrol perasaan dan jangan buat muka walaupun orang tanya soalan yang tak relevan dan dengan cara yang kurang sopan). Got the chance to catch up with my housemates masa kat UM and my friend who just came back from UK for good. Planned to go shopping, but I guess hilang selera shopping sebab penat sangat... bought a few books (5) from Borders and Kinokuniya...

2 of them are these:

Post Secret is a community project founded by Frank Warren. It allows people to share their secret anonymously and creatively on a postcard. (for more info, korang google jelah)....it turns out to inspire others and help people emotionally....coz I think it makes people feel that they're not alone in this world, and provides an escape from secrets that are burdening them....so far ada 5 books, I only bought 2 sebab (a) berat nak bawak balik, (b) mahal.

Most of the secrets are just written in short words and with graphics. I chose the wordi-est one to share here.

For Better
 1. He tries to make me happy.
2. He likes to keep the apartment clean.
3. He’s great in bed – we really have great sex together.
4. I love it when we cuddle.
5. He teases me in a fun way.
6. I like waking up next to him.
7. I enjoy feeling him inside me.
8. His happiness makes me happy.
9. He doesn’t like me to swear or yell at him.
10. He helps me avoid mistakes.
11. He says I turn him on.
12. I like to think of ways to make him happier.
13. My family likes him a lot and thinks he is a good person for me to be with.
14. He asked me if I want to get married.





For Worse

1. He frustrates me.
2. I do most of the cleaning while he relaxes.
3. He’s not interested in sex most of the time.
4. He develops various pains when we cuddle.
5. I can’t tease back.
6. He’s very grumpy when he wakes up.
7. He’d rather jack-off.
8. He is easily offended or angered.
9. He swears and yells at me.
10. He critiques almost everything I do.
11. Other people turn him on a lot more.
12. He doesn’t think of me most of the time.
13. I don’t tell them any of this because I don’t want them to think negatively of him.
14. I’m not sure if I do, but I said yes.

 
 
Do you have any secrets?
You can mail it to:
13345 Copper Ridge Rd, Germantown, MD 20874, USA

Perkara yang aku tak patut ulangi, tapi aku rasa akan kuulangi jugak

Hari raya ke-8, after almost 2 weeks of enjoying myself at home and beraya, time to go home to Miri and pretend those 2 weeks were a dream. Days of taking a nap whenever I feel like it are going to be traded off with napping accidentally in front of my workstation. I have to swap mom’s cooking with canteen / café food that sucks but have to eat it anyway coz nobody cares enough at home to prepare breakfast (I’m staying by myself, so yes, I don’t care enough about myself either).

There goes the days where I can spend as much time as I like to put on makeup (it was Hari Raya) and back to looking borderline ugly (not that I care, anyway…).And there goes the days of wearing pretty dresses and back to wearing drab work clothes. Karang kalau melaram lebih-lebih nanti orang tanya aku nak pegi mana…yelah, ini Miri bukan KL.

I think I might have started getting into my Miri ‘mode’ a bit early…there is this one particular blouse and a pair of pants that I really like to wear, especially when I go out running my errands on weekend, or just window shopping. The blouse is the flowy type, with an empire waist, which perfectly hide any bulging tummy, and it’s in my favorite dirty purple colour. Pants pulak jenis kain cotton yang stretchable tu….sounds super comfy kan, kan kan? Dua-dua pun I bought in Jusco Taman U masa pergi JB around X’mas last year…masa melepak dengan Puan S (masa tu Miss S lagi). First remarks that she made about the dress was, “never wear this blouse if you go dating or whatever….you can only wear it when you go out with close friends..” I still wear it though, sebab super comfy and tak payah gosok, but always very careful not to wear the blouse and the pants together….kalau pakai dengan jeans, it still looks stylish ok….

However, masa nak balik Miri tu, sebab malas giler nak balik, and we just came back from beraya, I main taram je pakai that combination haram tu….it’s raya and of course most of the baju are the kurungs la….my jeans pulak dah lipat siap-siap and at the bottom of the bag…so pakai jela….lawa jugak apa.

Until masa check-in tu…

I checked in my bag and gave the guy behind the counter my IC. Then he pointed at a piece of paper on the counter and asked me to confirm on that…it's something about the airline's regulations on liquids, sharp objects and pregnant ladies..

I just nodded my head coz I didn’t really get what he meant. It’s only after I walked away, board the airplane and safely on air did I realize…

He was asking me to confirm that I’m not pregnant.

DAMN. DAMN.

Patutla takde orang ngorat aku dalam plane. T_T

NOTE TO SELF:

1. Jangan pakai baju tu lagi. Ikut cakap Puan S.

2. Don’t get too comfy with comfy dresses/blouses/t-shirts/pants.

3. Round is NOT a shape. Lose it.

ada hati nak ada hobi baru

Let me tell you what has been in my mind for quite sometime....

Am contemplating to buy and learn how to play it during my free time, but right now, my RM tak sampai ke sana....

jeng jeng jeng.....

ACCORDION

yes...inilah yang saya nak....I've been playing trombone since form one and only 'retire' in 2006 (sempat lagi main dengan Miri Orchestra ok)....I miss the feeling of making music....so recently I decided to start main muzik balik.....was thinking to just get myself a trombone....tapi cam bosan la pulak asyik-asyik main benda yang sama...antara musical instruments that I'm contemplating are saxophone, drums and accordion. Tapi, accordion ni macam sangat menarik, kan, kan, kan?

What do you think?

warning!

don't mess with me when:

I'm hungry

My scarf is 'herot-berot' - which is equivalent to bad hair day

I'm super busy (if I'm just busy, busy I would have welcome the distraction)

I just had a review on my work and had a lot of action items (some irrelevant) to prove

dangerous living

Meh saya cerita sikit pasal life saya kat Miri nih....

1. Nak pegi kerja kena melintas satu jambatan kayu yang merentangi sungai yang ada buaya (tak caya tengok signboard AWAS di sudut kanan gambar)

2. Then, kena lalu the marshes area along Pantai Lutong, kadang-kadang kawasan ini boleh terbakar, berasap tebal dan anda tak nampak apa-apa semasa memandu melintasinya...

3. Sebab kitorang dah biasa hidup macam ni, buat kuih pun macam cerita McGyver.

Nampak tak screw driver kat situ? Speaking of McGyver, malam ni nak tengok Royal Pains!!

****drrooollll*****

bercintalah berkali-kali

A friend read the article in a magazine and quoted this:

"Untuk bercinta lagi, luahkan kata-kata yang baik untuk mencairkan prasangka, meleburkan curiga dan memadamkan dendam."

Saja je nak mengezass aku.

Tak terasa pun.

post-run

My body is aching. Sakit gilerr. Have to stay off high heels for a while.

Berjalan pun kengkang macam orang lepas beranak (ye ke?)

I'm not the only one though.

A friend gave this advice,

"Pain is weakness leaving the body"

Hmmmm....which must have meant, I was weak to begin with. Really unfit and weak.

Couch potato. Meatbag... tummy-tums

Feels like running again though. Can't wait to plan for the next event (which has to be next year, sad to say....have plans for the rest of the year already).

Wait until I recover.


P/S: Just for the record, I aimed to finish in 100 mins. Did it in 1 hr 41 mins though (101 mins). Consoled myself with the fact that my timing matched my running number (1414).

nota "ba wau nun wau ha" diri

this is what I planned to write until I thought better not to write about negative things...

takut jugak kalau come true

just for the record my sequence number masa naik flight tadi is #13

can u believe it? there's no row 13 in airplane seats, or check-in counters, but there is a 13 in the sequencing number.

takpela 13 tu nombor bertuah bagi aku

till then, people

UNGRATEFUL IDIOTIC DIVA

I broke a record yesterday.

I cried on my birthday.

You see, my ideal way of having a birthday celeb is for me to have a little time to reflect on how my year went (which I didn’t have the opportunity to with the current workload) and eat whatever I feel like eating and having drinks with friends and/or family. So far, my past birthday cravings include kek pisang, jantung pisang masak lemak, ikan sardin bakar, nasi lalapan, prawn dhal, etc.

I only have parties if I asked or plan for it myself. My parents organized this birthday party when I was 8. My brother and sister are still jealous about it until now, but I did not enjoy it that much because my parents were busy entertaining the guests. I was upset about it, and later on my mom asked me to help with the cleaning up and got told off because I didn’t want to. Nobody is supposed to do the clean up on their birthdays, right?

So there I was, nicely dressed for a dinner out and a friend picked me up from my place. We shared the same birthday so, we were planning to have a birthday dinner then other friends will join us after that to continue the “celebration”. Purr-fect.

On the way, one friend called and asked us to turn back. I felt something fishy already when I saw TC’s car passed by my house just after we left. He told me he’s looking for a colleague’s house. Anyway, since the driver is so baik hati to turn around, I said, “it’s better be good”, but still had my heart set on what I wanted to eat for dinner (I am superstitious when it comes to food, cravings and bad luck).

Just as I half expected, there were a lot of cars in front of my house. There were about 10 people and they were carrying food with silly smiles on their faces. And how did I react? By remaining firmly seated on the car seat with my seatbelt on. I told them I wanted to eat pizza. They said they’ve made some food and want to have the party in my house, to which I profoundly refused. I haven’t dusted my house since before Raya (thanks to all the post raya and weekend outings). I have 2 weeks’ worth of laundry which I just washed and currently hanging around my house, and I’ve more or less set up camp in front of my 42”, so I have my makeup kit, toner, lotions, blanket, scarves, sweaters, cushions and empty cups strewn around my living room. And yeah, I don’t do your-own-birthday-party-cleaning up. So, I asked them to have it in Miss E’s house instead.

I saw some disappointed looks on my friends’ faces. And at least 2 of them called me a ‘diva’. Honestly, I don’t handle surprises that well. When a guy I had a huge crush on asked me to be his girlfriend, I walked away from him and we didn’t speak until 2 days later. We were an item for the next 3.5 years (oops, that’s a different story). On the way to Miss E’s house, I was thinking about my reactions and the looks on my friends’ faces, and felt really bad. I was behaving like such an ungrateful idiotic diva.

Ungrateful idiotic diva. Ungrateful idiotic diva.

I didn’t enjoy much of the evening though I really like my birthday cake. I was thinking about how my friends must have viewed me because of this. And I was thinking about my superstitions, about not having what I wanted to eat and how I will have bad luck for the rest of the year until the curse is broken on my 28th birthday. I also thought that at my age, my mom already have 3 kids (even though I’ve had more fun than her). Then, I called my mom, and I cried. I also cried hard after I put down the phone. There I was, crying alone outside the house when all the other people were busily chattering and laughing or maybe talking about how ungrateful I was or maybe they just forgot why they were there at the first place.

Just when I’ve recollected my composure and went inside to ask them out for drinks, everybody was beginning to leave. Okla, I left also but then asked TC to go out for drinks. I’ve promised another friend who shared the same birthday as mine to meet him up, and TC owed me a deal to hang out with my metrosexual friends, so he followed suit. How I wish my other friends were there too. We left before 11pm sebab TC belum mandi.

I still woke up today feeling bad about being a diva though. The story will pass through generations, and I will remember it as the day I cried.

At least half of the bad feeling is gone after I put it in writing.

People might think I have weird antics.

I have a better word for it.

Idiosyncrasies.

27

It's my birthday today and I wanted to keep it quiet. At least, from my cubicle mates (loud Aussies, they are).

Too bad, it only lasted for 10 minutes when my brother's girlfriend appeared out of nowhere and singing Happy Birthday on her way to my desk. I stopped her on the first line, but alas, the damage is done. It's official. I'm 27. Thanks for the wishes on facebook and my mobile.

They told me to go and have a good celebration today. Instead, I'm still in the office, having a lot to think of, still not finish evaluating oil/condensate/gas/shit and already brain dead. Daym. Not wanting to let the day pass without dropping a short note here though.

Most people asked me what is my birthday resolution? Whatt???!!! Now we have resolutions made on birthdays? I don't even have one for new year. Well, I did give a thought about it. My resolution is to STAY YOUNG, LOOK YOUNG


Why?


Mostly because I'm still single.

65% of guys my age are taken and 5% of them are weirdos. The rest of the 30% are not in my social circle(s).

85% of men aged 30-38 are taken also. The other 15% are divorcees or confused (in whatever ways you can think of).

Older than that? Ughhh. I still have taste ok.

Which leaves out the younger group of guys. The new generations. The "in"-trend.

Geddit?

It's a good thing actually. At least, I will take care of myself by eating healthily, regular exercise and keeping my stress level as low as possible.

:)

Happy Birthday to me.

you ask me on relationship advice?

my friend asked me this question during breakfast...

If your boyfriend/lover/husband cheated on you, would you consider giving them another chance or just walk out of the relationship? If you forgive that person and give him another chance, he might take you for granted, but if you walk out, what if he really, really is sorry for cheating on you?

To which I answered, I would give sometime for me to cool down and make rational rather than emotional judgment. It might take a short or long time, but at least it's not based on emotions. After I'm quite sure I'm in the rational state of mind, I will just follow whatever directions inspired within me and leave the others in God's mercy.

P/S: I have to make some decision right now, and still don't have an idea what I should do about it. Need time and space to think.

tongue in cheek (18sx)

Location: DVD shop, Gadong Mall, Brunei
When: 1 Ramadan 1430H

What I was looking for is this..

what I came across to while searching...

Tulah sape suruh main masuk je, kan dah terhamil isteri orang, pastu sibuk-sibuk nak mintak maaf..... *excuse my language*

P/S: Entri ini saya post kan sekarang sebab sebelum ni, kita kena menghormati bulan puasa.... :)

a series of unfortunate events

crash landed on my butt sebab tergelincir kat Niah National Park semalam....not as bad as the crash I had in Korea when a novice skier ran into me....but still sakit...sampai kepala rasa the jerk masa jatuh tu....hopefully everything is ok...

mintak CIMB buat standing instruction for my insurance payment....but then my agent cakap nothing has been paid so far...daym...dahla my bank cawangan Kuching, and I can't believe zaman sains dan teknologi ni I still have to write a formal letter of complaint and FAX it to them..nasib baik tak suruh snail mailkan surat tu

ok, what's next?

luahan hati seorang katak puru

Salah ke kalau aku membatukan hati aku?
Salah ke kalau aku rasa bercinta ni pointless?
Salah ke kalau aku enjoy my life to the max while still in this hiatus mode?
Salah ke kalau aku serahkan semua kepada Allah?
Salah ke kalau aku anggap membalas sms itu adalah usaha (walaupun tak seberapa)?
Salah ke kalau aku menunggu orang yang sependapat dengan aku?

Janganlah lecture-lecture aku.
Aku tau apa yang aku nak.
Aku takkan kahwin for the sake of kahwin.
But at the same time, aku tak nakla bercinta.
Penat. Macam sekarang ok. Kenal-kenal without commitment.
Kalau dah commit nak kahwin baru boleh bercinta.
Kalau tak berani, nasib aaa. Aku carik orang yang berani.
Kalau terlepas, aku anggap je takde jodoh.
Tak semua makhluk Tuhan yang berpasangan ni gembira.
Kalau semua gembira, orang yang kerja kat mahkamah syari’ah boleh goyang kaki.
Memetik kata-kata kawanku seorang duda,
“Aku mengambil jalan yang orang lain tak berani ambil. Aku memilih penceraian dari hidup tanpa sefahaman. Agak radikal berbanding teman-temanku yang memilih untuk terus hidup dalam ikatan yang sudah tidak membahgiakan, kerana mereka takut akan kesunyian.”

Tolonglah percaya bila aku cakap aku gembira macam ni.
Kita ni manusia, under the guiding hands of God.
InsyaAllah, when everything is right, automatic hati akan terbuka.
Janganlah cakap aku memilih dan akan menyesal di kemudian hari.
Tak baik tau cakap macam tu. Mendoakan yang tak baik pulak.
Aku punya gut instinct cakap aku patut rileks aja.
It’s nice to have yourself at the top of your priority.
Lagipun, aku happy.
Dengan family dan kawan-kawan yang aku suka.

Tak caya?
Tengok gambar-gambar aku di facebook.
Sikit punya lebar aku senyum.


P/S: nak share a bit lagu jiwang yang saya suka:

Dari Hati Ke hati

Tinggilah tinggi
Tinggi tinggi burung di awan
Akhirnya engkau turun
Akhirnya turun mencari kawan

Terbang di awan
Turun mari ke dalam taman
Kalau mencari kawan
Mencari kawan biarlah padan

Bukan sahaja
Bukan saja kita kemari
Kita bercinta
Curahkan rahsia hati ke hati

Burung tempua
Sana sini mencari sarang
Kalau hati dah suka
Samalah kita terbang pulang

"+"ve lah....

Meminjam kata-kata Si Zahiril Adzim;

"Tidak ada kehidupan yang ku angankan,
cuma kental meredah kehidupan yang ada
sambil menggalas cita-cita

Walau macam mana celakanya kehidupan itu,
ia tetap kehidupan"


That's the attitude that I'm going to hold, come what may. I always have a backup plan for the worst case scenario (though in reality, we never know how it will turn out). But at least I'll know where and how to start picking up the pieces of my life.

I am not in a serious relationship at the moment and the company is going through transition.

I stood up to my dad when he kept pestering me about being selective and the fact that my sister got engaged. Told him to stop doing that coz' it's messing up with my positive bubble.

This applies to every other aspects in my life as well.

Period.