Dear God

Remember all those conversations I had with YOU?

Please take care of everything Ya Allah..

Please let me have a strong heart

Please protect those who are dearest to me

Please protect all the Muslims

I know YOU will

I know YOU have been doing all that, all this while

I know YOU always guide my way

I know YOU love me

and for that

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar

Pet Peeves

Some people cakap aku cerewet, tapi sebenarnya aku agak tolerant if I adjust my mind to it. Macam durian, belacan, cencaluk, blue cheese, haggis....it's all about acquired taste.

Anyway, ada 3 benda ni made it to the top list of perkara yang aku rasa susah nak tolerate.

1. LIES

Pantang nombor teratas. I used to have a habit of dropping little lies here and there during my teenage years, tapi nak ditakdirkan bila dapat hidayah in uni, ambik kau....pasal benda-benda remeh pun aku nangis-nangis call mak ayah mintak ampun....(which they found to be both funny and worrying).

Hence, I made it a policy not to lie. Walaupun kadang-kadang kebenaran tu boleh jeopardize karierku, aku tetap akan berterus-terang. Nasib baik boss cakap "Appreciate your candor"...and because of this policy, it also heightened my senses kot when people lie. I always found out. Siapa yang pernah tipu aku tau la kan...hahahaha....you know who you are missy. Nasib baik ko reti pujuk aku.

Anyway, a lot of times if it doesn't affect me that much aku biar je....seronok tengok telatah orang yang dok cover2 ni.


2. NOT KEEPING YOUR WORDS

"A man is as good as his words." Orang putih ngan orang cina dua² ada peribahasa ni, cuma ngan diorang ni I think it will only apply among kins. Kalau orang luar, diorang peduli apa. Orang melayu pun ada peribahasa, "lembu berpegang pada tali, manusia berpegang pada janji" (though, aku prefer kalau it's kerbau instead of lembu)...so kalau takleh pegang janji, baik jadi lembu atau kerbau...or just don't promise me anything if you can't keep it or can't reason with me afterwards.

***OMG, my 2-year old niece pun ada perangai macam ni, kalau ko dah janji nak bawak dia jalan, muka dia akan moyok satu hari kalau dari pagi sampai petang masih jugak duduk rumah.


3. ANY FORM OF ABUSE

Be it physical, mental or emotional. Or any form of penganiayaan. Lately aku banyak sangat dengar cerita perempuan rampas laki orang. Itu aniaya jugak tu...cuba kalau semua benda-benda alah penderaan, penganiayaan tu kena kat kau balik, apa ko rasa?

Ingat karma, ingat balasan Allah. Tak cepat, lambat beb.



Ok. I'm done membebel. Gotta work work work.

Of werewolf

I feel ugly
I feel fat
Damn the hot weather's not helping
It's giving me headache
The time of the month
Full moon
And I'm PMS-ing
;-(


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This Reminds Me of Me

The Happiness Project: Or, Why I Spent a Year Trying to Sing in the Morning, Clean My Closets, Fight Right, Read Aristotle, and Generally Have More Fun





Gretchen Rubin had an epiphany one rainy afternoon in the unlikeliest of places: a city bus. "The days are long, but the years are short," she realized. "Time is passing, and I'm not focusing enough on the things that really matter." In that moment, she decided to dedicate a year to her happiness project.

In this lively and compelling account of that year, Rubin carves out her place alongside the authors of bestselling memoirs such as Julie and Julia, The Year of Living Biblically, and Eat, Pray, Love. With humor and insight, she chronicles her adventures during the twelve months she spent test-driving the wisdom of the ages, current scientific research, and lessons from popular culture about how to be happier.

Rubin didn't have the option to uproot herself, nor did she really want to; instead she focused on improving her life as it was. Each month she tackled a new set of resolutions: give proofs of love, ask for help, find more fun, keep a gratitude notebook, forget about results. She immersed herself in principles set forth by all manner of experts, from Epicurus to Thoreau to Oprah to Martin Seligman to the Dalai Lama to see what worked for her—and what didn't.

Her conclusions are sometimes surprising—she finds that money can buy happiness, when spent wisely; that novelty and challenge are powerful sources of happiness; that "treating" yourself can make you feel worse; that venting bad feelings doesn't relieve them; that the very smallest of changes can make the biggest difference—and they range from the practical to the profound.

Written with charm and wit, The Happiness Project is illuminating yet entertaining, thought-provoking yet compulsively readable. Gretchen Rubin's passion for her subject jumps off the page, and reading just a few chapters of this book will inspire you to start your own happiness project.

Source: www.goodreads.com

Beautiful Do'a

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwQu9_eJ9NQ#

Ya Allah

Sesungguhnya waktu Dhuha itu Dhuha-Mu,

Kecantikanmya itu kecantikan-Mu,

Keindahannya itu keindahan-Mu,

Kekuatannya itu kekuatan-Mu,

Kekuasaannya itu kekuasaan-Mu,

Perlindungannya itu perlindungan-Mu.

Ya Allah

 Jika rezeki masih di atas langit, turunkanlah,

Jika di dalam bumi, keluarkanlah,

Jika sukar permudahkanlah,

Jika haram sucikanlah.

Jika jauh dekatkanlah.

Berkat waktu dhuha, kecantikan-Mu, keindahan-Mu, kekuatan-Mu,  kekuasaan-Mu,

limpahkanlah kepadaku segala yang telah Engkau limpahkan kepada hamba-hamba-Mu yang soleh.

****kalau tak sempat nak solat sunat tu, memadailah dengan membaca doa ini ye...wallahu'alam

Fasal Pasal

Aku memang suka cari pasal.

Nak buat benda susah-susah je.

Masa kat sekolah, elok² join Pandu Puteri, aktiviti 1-2 kali seminggu, petang² boleh buat homework, lepak, tidur, basuh baju etc aku tak nak. Gigih tukar join brass band ingat nak main euphonium sebab senior dia baik, tapi sebab masa tu tak tau nama benda alah tu euphonium, maka aku telah TERmain trombone (sampai sekarang). Ambik kau, dapat senior garang, kena hukum junjung instrument, kena jerit dengan akak-akak singa, practice siang malam pagi petang, bibir jadi tebal tanpa suntikan kolagen...

Masa kat uni, orang berebut nak ambik subjek tambahan yang senang dapat A, tapi aku ambik yang susah sebab (a) perasaan ingin tahu, (b) I just like challenges and (c) sense of satisfaction kalau tiba² aku dapat A or A-, I ended up getting B+ jer, tapi itulah yang highest di dalam kelas itu.

Elektif luar fakulti pun sama, instead of ambik beramai-ramai dengan housemate / coursemate / sedara-mara, aku pegi amik ELF sorang-sorang....dahlah kelas dia malam-malam habis lambat, belum tentu lagi still ada bas untuk balik, pastu mostly ca ya nun alif....di sinila aku mempraktikkan aku punya soft skills untuk buat kawan, and occasionally a ride back to Vista after class...

Company yang aku kerja sekarang pun adalah first company that I applied too. Banyak orang fikir susah especially sebab nak kena buat essay bagai dalam application form tu, aku pun fikir susah sebab aku bukan scholar and result pun cukup syarat je untuk apply. But at the same time, I know that I want to start my career in a big company because these companies don't need me to be experienced, possess my own transport, to be one of their scholars or speak Mandarin for a start. So what I did was I spent 6 months thinking on my answers before I submit my application form. I took the time to figure out apa yang company ni cari sebenarnya and plan my answers. Of course, to be able to do that I started planning my applications a year before I graduate (control freak, but all I was thinking was to get a job ASAP to help my parents).    --> I always share this when I come to campuses and talk to the students; one of them who got hired even came to me and told me how these words affected him...huhuhu makcik banggo

Even dah kerja pun aku saja nak menyusahkan diri, ambik heavy responsibility sebab nak all the fame and glory sorang² konon....hambik kau, bila screw up, walaupun sikit semuanya di atas batu jemala me, myself and I jugak.

Sometimes I wish I can live a simple life, but then I realized that simple is actually subjective. What other people refer as simple might be dead boring to me. Simple, for me is to be simply me (and not meddle with other people's lives).

Susah pun subjektif, sebab aku tau benda-benda ni tak senang, so at times I have to be creative and innovative in order to survive. Think about how to get things done with minimal effort and planning.

So here I am, finding myself on the tortuous path again. I feel good about it, but the future is not really up to us to see. The best thing to do is to keep praying for guidance and to have a strong heart and determination to make it work.

KEEP CALM and CRUSH some CANDIES!!!

Roger and out.

**1 day closer

Top 3 Secrets' Pick

I still religiously open postsecret.com every Sunday to see new secrets tapi dah lama tak share my favorites kat sini..

So here goes, my top 3 picks for the Father's Day weekend..










Moooooooooonnnnnnddddaaayyyy!!!!! Blearghh

Beware, it's gonna make you cry

I know this one woman
With a great capacity to love
Laki dia mintak izin kawen satu lagi
Dia izinkan
Tapi Tuhan je tau betapa remuk-redamnya hati dia
(Yelah, kalau bini orang lain dah lama kot pegi serang the other woman)
So, slowly she built her inner strength
Take care of her kids, nak make sure diorang jadi orang berjaya
Treat the husband like a king
Share a roof dengan "adik" baru dia
Take care of the anak tiri until anak sendiri rasa merajuk
(Yelah, kalo jadi apa-apa mesti orang cakap ko dera anak tu)
Macam mana dia boleh maintain baik dan sabar
Only God knows
Only God knows

Fast forward 15 years
Anak-anak semua dah berdikari
Tuhan uji lagi
In the form of an ailing husband
Yang tidak mampu berdiri di atas kaki sendiri, literally
Bini muda bagi macam-macam alasan untuk lari
So what did this woman do?
She dropped everything for the man she loves
To be at his every beck and calls
Worrying herself to death at any negative signs
Crying in joy at every positive little progress
A companion in those many sleepless nights
A dedicated nurse besides the hospital bed
Sabar buat kesekian kalinya
Which made me think..
If I ever fall sick and helpless, can I name somebody who would do that for me?
If I'm in her situation, would I be able to do what she did?
Kenapa dia begitu sabar?
Then I found the answer
She must have loved him more than she loves herself
That's how she went through all these years
She loves him more than she loves herself

Wanita itu
Ku doakan yang terbaik untuknya
After all she's been through
Ya Allah, kekalkanlah dia dalam bahagia
In life and the hereafter

Wanita itu adalah ibuku
I may not have your patience mom
But I promise to love more than I love myself
Because that's about the best thing I learned from you
I've been wanting to write this since long time ago
Please don't make me remove this post from my blog
I love you mom


P/S: Everyday's a Mother's Day


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Things That Starts with "T"

TROMBONE



I finally bought my own trombone for this small orchestra group that my friend gathered for old times' sake. First time playing after 7 years last nite. I still have it in me, albeit being clueless most of the time. We had an MPO guy helping us out last night, that was really good.

TEA EGG




Not really a big fan of tea but once in a while I like to have some fancy loose tea leaves or flower tea. All I have to do is just put the leaves or flowers inside the tea egg and let it seep. Another thing that I do is I put some ginger in there and put the egg in a pot of normal tea. Add a little bit of honey, and voila - perfect drink to make your headache disappear.



TUESDAY

Which is today. Which always start with a meeting. Argggghhhh


Ta-ta

My KL Weekend

Attending 2 weddings with Sooty today. One is our mutual friend merangkap junior sekolah and the other is tagging along to her colleague's wedding.

Then alang2 join her mom's birthday dinner.

Full day ahead! Have a nice weekend uols!

Mode: narscist self-indulgent my sis said I should be selfish

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So Sweet!

I like reading Kak LG's blog... she updates it everyday and shares on the goings-on of her lovely little family in Perth. Such an inspiration, she made cooking looks easy :)

But this particularly entry that she wrote was so sweet, I just have to mention it here.

Hehehehehe.....mode: berangan

Just click on the link below, will you?


http://salam2benua.blogspot.com/2013/06/love-notes-on-food.html

Dwi Hati

A friend of mine just got married to a man twice her age, and for once, I could not imagine her to be married to someone else, other than him.

Of course, they've had their trials and tribulations, but they made it.

When I see them, I don't see an old man marrying a younger woman (the girl is pretty by her own right), I just see love in its perfection. And he's not orang putih, in case you wonder.

It just goes to say, when you love somebody....age, weight, height and distance are just - NUMBERS.

Ok now, let's listen to this new song by Yuna & Aizat nih...just love this duo!!!




Dirimu bagaikan
Sebuah lukisan
Penuh warna
Penuh seni
Tak layak ku miliki

Jangan kau berpura
Engkau juga sama
Membuat aku rasa tenang
Hatiku kau miliki

Dengarkan gurindam
Inilah lagu cintaku padamu
Andainya
Ku hilang
Biarlah lagu ku jadi temanmu

Diantara kita
Suka sama suka
Aku pasti kau punya hati
Ingin bersama jua

Oooo

Tidak semestinya
Semua cerita cinta
Kan berakhir sesempurna
Seperti kita impikan

Dengarkan gurindam
Inilah lagu cintaku padamu
Andainya
Ku hilang
Biarlah lagu ku jadi temanmu

La la la la
La la la la


Lagu: Anas
Lirik: Anas, Aizat & Noh Salleh
Gubahan: Anas, Aizat & Yuna
Artis: Aizat Amdan ft. Yuna

Wednesdays are supposed to be wordless

Whoopsie Daisie

My friend who joined the company on the same day as me texted:

"Beb, our anniversary is 20th June la, not 20th May"

Hahaha hihihi huhuhu

Fine, I'll meet u for dinner next week


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23, Love Lane

Nazia's and my birthday are on October, but with the rig sequence just around the corner, I just have to justify a reason to splurge on a weekend getaway. Haha.




















































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